One Pot Cooking

It’s here!!!  My card came in making it legal for me to purchase and use medicinal marijuana for the pain I experience because of Multiple Sclerosis and other neuropathies I’m experiencing from other problematic breakdown of my body.  What I need to do next is to make an appointment with my distributor.  It can take a week or two before I can get in.  It seems the facility is quite busy.

For those of you interested in this, it is a somewhat long process from beginning to end.  I would say it took me about 2 months to get the ball rolling and now another couple of weeks before I can get started unless I luck out and get in sooner.  The most important part of the whole process is through your neurologist.  They are the ones who enroll you and get your ID # to fill out your forms.  Without this, you can’t do it.

My neurologist suggested it to me, although I had heard about it.  I didn’t know if I should go that route myself, but he seemed to think so.  When I told my internist that I was going to try it, he was glad that I was.  It seems that in the medical field, there are more doctors approving of this than disapproving of it.  I even spoke to my pharmacist about it and he too was glad.  He told me his father was just enrolled in it and seemed to be doing well on it.

In regard to the pain in my legs, after trying several different drugs that my internist tried me on to no avail, he decided that I should go back and see yet another pain management doctor.  This doctor is one he approves of.  I had my first visit with this doctor this past week and my visit was quite different than with the other facility.  I was talking to the doctor for at least 20 minutes and he examined me thoroughly.  With the other facility, I dealt with a PA and only met my doctor one of the times I went down for a steroid block, just before the procedure.

It ‘s been decided to start over and take it step by step and we will see where this all leads us to.

I will keep you abreast of the marijuana and the new pain management doctor.

I hope this finds you all in relative good health and let me know if there is anything I can do to help you.

 

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Call Me A Jerk

Hello my dear friends,

Today and the previous two days my myoclonic jerks and/or dystonia have been acting up.  Just call me a jerk.

UnknownI’ve been so spasmodic that my husband’s face was creased with worry.  He demanded that I go back to bed.  It was a good thing to do.  I was slipping and sliding in my chair because I could not control the jerks that propelled me forward inch by inch towards the end of the chair, and eventually, I would be on the floor writhing in agony.

You see, I also have a form of Dystonia.  I forget which one my Neurologist told me, but he rattled it off on my last visit.  He said, “You know that you have?????? dystonia, don’t you?”  I was surprised.  He said, “not only do you have MS but you have a secondary disease of ??? dystonia.”  I stared at him looking dumb.  I replied finally, “Great, just great.”  I knew I had myoclonic jerks, but I didn’t know that I had a second disease.

All of what is happening to me these days is because of stress.  My quality of life is a daunting challenge and I have to fight every day for some form of normalcy.  I mean, my kind of normalcy, which we all know is also challenging.

The cause of all this stress is my upcoming surgery on Thursday.  My surgery is unrelated to Multiple Sclerosis or Dystonia.  This surgery will be attended by two Doctors and will take 3-5 hours.  I have good reason to be concerned which I won’t go into here.

slideshow_1259634_131408-clocksI have to focus on my 5-minutes at a time.  If I didn’t, I would be a mess right now.  However, the stress is still there even if you have a plastered smile on your face and I’m good at wearing a smile despite everything in my life.  Surprisingly, it works in that once you have a smile on your face, although it is “put on” in the morning, you find yourself living that smile.

My take on all this:

Stress is not always evident by your physical nature, however; it finds it way to the surface psychologically of physically in due course.  When it becomes evident to you and others by your body’s reactions to every day occurrences, then it’s time to figure out what may be causing that stress.  Once you know what it is then you can find a way to deal with it.  When you can’t find a way to deal with it, take your day in small increments and handle it that way.

I sit here hoping to hear your prayers on Thursday with a smile on my face taking my life 5 minutes at a time.  Sure, I’m still jerking around all over the place but that can’t be helped.  There is no way to take away the underlying fear of surgery.

I will happily jerk my way until Thursday at which point I will probably succumb to tears.  Meanwhile, I am as ever, a jerk.